At the age of 12 I vividly remember the trauma of my mother having a nervous breakdown. I learned to be strong as I lived in the midst of endless confused talking. Even though I faced many challenges growing up I had a strong, positive father figure who raised me and my siblings to believe in God, which helped build my foundation.
At the age of 23 I was ready for change and knew I needed a real hope in my life. I heard truth and believed God was all good; so eventually, I surrendered my life to Christ. As I attended church I heard the preached word and my faith awakened to believe. One day I heard the scripture in Philippians 4:6 “Make your request known unto the Lord”. At last, I could share my deepest feelings with God and reveal my childhood desires that I held so dear in my heart. As a child I wanted the sanity of my mother restored.
However, it was forty four years later when her physical health condition worsened… I moved her to live in a nursing facility. As time passed, God instructed me to keep praise and worship music playing 24/7 in her room. Unknowingly, God was setting the atmosphere for breakthrough.
One day as I laid down to take a nap with plans to visit my mother after I left exercise class. About an hour before the time to get ready (I know) God shook my shoulder and awakened me. The Holy Spirit said, “Go see your mother.” I remember thinking, “Oh I’ll go after I leave exercise class,” but the Spirit spoke with urgency, “Go now”! I knelt down to pray and indirectly asked God for what I wanted. Then God said, “Now ask me for what you really want for your mother”. He knew what was truly in my heart.
At that moment, I realized all my years of waiting on God to heal her I had resolved and accepted that maybe this was the will of God, but this time when I arrived the nurse said it was the first time my mother asked to sit outside, and she sat for hours watching the ducks in the pond before returning to her room. I witnessed the miracle of God restoring her sanity, but the greatest miracle was she reached out to accept Christ into her life.
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen…Hebrews 11:1
At the age of 23 I was ready for change and knew I needed a real hope in my life. I heard truth and believed God was all good; so eventually, I surrendered my life to Christ. As I attended church I heard the preached word and my faith awakened to believe. One day I heard the scripture in Philippians 4:6 “Make your request known unto the Lord”. At last, I could share my deepest feelings with God and reveal my childhood desires that I held so dear in my heart. As a child I wanted the sanity of my mother restored.
However, it was forty four years later when her physical health condition worsened… I moved her to live in a nursing facility. As time passed, God instructed me to keep praise and worship music playing 24/7 in her room. Unknowingly, God was setting the atmosphere for breakthrough.
One day as I laid down to take a nap with plans to visit my mother after I left exercise class. About an hour before the time to get ready (I know) God shook my shoulder and awakened me. The Holy Spirit said, “Go see your mother.” I remember thinking, “Oh I’ll go after I leave exercise class,” but the Spirit spoke with urgency, “Go now”! I knelt down to pray and indirectly asked God for what I wanted. Then God said, “Now ask me for what you really want for your mother”. He knew what was truly in my heart.
At that moment, I realized all my years of waiting on God to heal her I had resolved and accepted that maybe this was the will of God, but this time when I arrived the nurse said it was the first time my mother asked to sit outside, and she sat for hours watching the ducks in the pond before returning to her room. I witnessed the miracle of God restoring her sanity, but the greatest miracle was she reached out to accept Christ into her life.
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen…Hebrews 11:1
